Nothing New.

Like Up There. Nothing's new. List of events Below..

1. Still Single.

2. Like the guy who's taken.

3. Sleepover tomorrow.

4. My Best Friend got sued.

5. I started using my twitter, and made a tumblr.

6. Got a lot more facebook friends.

7. Cried some more.

8. Almost got my poetry published.

9. Was called a no good slut.

10. Beat the crap out of a popular girl.


And ya that's basically it. I've been love struck, but no one can say they are love struck for me. Because I'm unlovable! Yay for Unlovable! What else am I supposed to say? I really have not a clue. Sorry for not posting (no one reads this anyway.) And um.. I Love You All, even if I don't hate myself. It's not true! You can love someone if you don't love yourself. I do it every single day.


My Poem for the post.

A Game

Love Hurts.
Loneliness Kills.
Happiness Dies.
So Lets All Agree To Forget .
Like Everyone does Eventually.
No one Actually Cares.
Its A Game.
A Game to Me.
And A Game to You.


Song for the post: Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis/ Fall for you- Secondhand Serenade.

Drifting Off...

Ahh...Drifting off.

Day dreaming.
Happiness.

When I day dream I smile and I'm as happy as could be, All my dreams are a reality and I've found love. I'm rich and have him by my side, 1 little girl beautiful as could be. A house by the beach. Late nights spent just staring at the waves, falling a sleep to the wind whistling the tree's. My perfect life. My dream. To have that a handsome husband were nothing could get better than it already is.


My Life Is A Smile.
Until I wake up. Snap back to my life. Where I'm alone.
No one to say They love Me. No one to tell me that they care. That they're there for me. For who I am. No one to say I'm one of the most beautiful people they no. I stand alone. Hoping one day my Day dream's will be my reality.


Poem for The Post...

A Wish
If they all came true
The world would be happier
and life would be good
Smiles would overtake the world
Loneliness would be a disease solved
and instead of tears
We'd shed love
Instead of drugs
We'd all hug
Instead of death
We'd all live.
In peace and Harmony
No more wars
Everyone would be friends
Appearance would mean nothing
Everyone would hold hands
all around the world
Singing in the harmony
of Love.


I'm Gonna Start putting Songs for the post :)
Song Of The Post- Airplanes- B.O.B Ft Hayley Williamson. <3

When a smile....

When a smile takes your breath away somethings going down. Something special to you making you happy as well. Speechless and breathless. Joy fills your system and everything's great.

But

When a smile make you cry. Your alone, your watching the others enjoy there lives so happily. When you have no one, and the happiness and smiles around you leaves you with no other option to cry. We've all been there.

But

When a smile comes on the face of the one you love... Your mind goes blank and all you can think about is them. How happy you are and how much you want that for them. You want them to be happier than you will ever be. You wanna see that smile everyday.

But

When your smile makes them cry. All you wanna do is Die.



A powerful thing is love. Love is the heart and soul of most. It's what makes life joyful and once you've had it it's the only thing you crave. You wish for it constently. Without it your Broken. Alone. We all want someone even if you had to travel the world to find them you would. Anything for Love. Love. A word that is over used and now it's meaning has faded away, but you know when you feel so strong for one person, when they're always on your mind and nothing else is able to enter your mind can't concentrate on anything. When they're near you they're the only one you look at. Can't take your eyes away, even if they notice you you'll continue staring. A spell put over you that's what it is. It always will be.


My poem for this postt

My Love
Is sheds tears
giving out affection to everyone
but never recieving enough
Enough to survive
it's slowly dieing out
leaving me alone
It needs love
It's starving now
When it's gone
It won't come back
Don't leave me with no one
and Nothing
I can't die now
I need the smile
to bring me back to life
I've never really lived
I've just been dead.


-Ky <3

Myspace WHA?

Haha I'm making a Myspace RIGHT now, I really don't understand WHY I'm doing it, But I am. I have nothing better to do with my time. Well now I've failed at making a Myspace so ya now what! Todays topic. Well today I really don't have one. I've had a regular day which consists of...

1. Waking up.
2. Laying in bed till 6:30am.
3. Getting up.
4. Getting ready.
5. Eat breakfast
6. Wait till 7:15am.
7. Get Up my mom.
8. Get driven to school.
9. Hang around in bathroom
10. Go through school.
11. Go to detention.
12. Go to library.
13. Beg for a ride from a friend.
14. Get a ride home.
15. Go on Computer

and Now I'm posting. So, I was threatened to be killed. It was sad how he thinks he can hurt me. Plus he's obsessed and won't leave me alone. I'm thinking he just overly likes me and now I kinda wanna kill him so lets hope this is all one huge joke for him and the police won't haft to get involved. So Ya..
My poem for today vvvvv


Heart
Hanging from the tree's
Grabbing hold
of all the little leaves
Holding tighter
Never seeming to seize
The love you hold close
you watch all the kids just tease
but you'll never give up
You see
You were meant to love
You were meant to be
The one that never gives up
So just keep hanging to the tree's
Love will find it's passion
don't worry one bit
It might come in a unfamiliar fashion
but just don't flip
for you'll have such compassion
That love will have its toll
don't worry don't use ration
It will find your way into the soul.


I'm pretty sure that poem makes no sence but till next time
-Ky :)

Live For Life Because Life Is About Love.

Love. An Interesting thing isn't it? It fills you with Joy, then smashes you hopes and dreams to the ground. When your without it you wish for it constantly and when you have it you hold on to it as tightly as you possibly can. You have that one person that's always on your mind. Your heart sinks when they leave but when they're near you life can't be greater. You want to hear there voice all the time and you never can stop thinking about them. You want them to hold your hand and always comfort you.

Today. I've been thinking about LOVE. Love being a keyword. It's been on my mind all day. Especially since the one I love with a passion the one that's always on my mind and he's the cutest boy you'll ever meet and he's just plain amazing his smile will take you on a trip light years away even when he looks at you his loveliness just overwhelms your soul and if you look in his eyes you automatically wish he was yours but he doesn't want to be yours so you cry at night wishing one day that will change and his smell is just so good you've become addicted to it and need him everyday of your life... Wait..that's just for me. He wears cologne though so don't think I'm like mad creepy stalker girl! :) He's perfect. Well not perfect, but different. Different in the best way possible. Anyway My poem for today...


Love.
A smile comes across your face
You turn to look his way
He smile melts your heart
and you can't turn away
He always seems to take apart
of everything you say
Turning your frowns into smiles
He takes apart of every day
Even if your walked a thousand miles
He'd never ever stray
When with him you always feel like a small child
Never to be betrayed.

That one sucked x] I try <3 But
for now
GoodBye
Ky :)

A Smile A Frown But Nothings Left.

I smiled today. I frowned today. I cried today. I hated today. I loved today. I needed today. What is left? Again there is nothing. I'm left alone, well in my mind I am.

I'm going to start off with something that I was told. "Kyleigh, One day your going to be a Beautiful Butterfly and everyone will wish they we're you. Right now your only a caterpillar. Don't fret. You'll grow." It makes me happy to think I'll maybe one day be beautiful. Be smart and fun to be around. Be perfect.

Perfect. It's a odd word. A word that basically has no meaning. Being perfect, there is really no such thing. Everyone has flaws and pains and depression somewhere inside. Everyone has hurt no one can be happy all the time. Perfection is a word used to put others down.. When they're not alike the popular crowd is "Perfect". We all want to be the perfect one. But they're is no such thing. Perfection is Impossible to attain. No dought about that.


Anyway My poem for this blog.
I actually have a title!

Perfection

We all stand in one unity.
My Bad
We all wish we stood in one unity.
We all want the perfect living
Life without the pain
Without the heartbreaks
When your alone
You want someone to be there
to hold you hand
to say it's gonna be alright.
But sadly that won't always happen
For a time you'll be alone
You'll cry for hours.
and wish to be dead.
But death is not a solution
Even though you always will hear
about the people who snap
Snap in 2
All they can think of
Is death
Where do you go?
Do you go up?
Do you go down?
Do you start over?
Or do you just vanish?
Perfection is Impossible.
Don't aim for it
Unless you wish for the failure
That will cause the hurt
and Pain
and Sorrow
and despair
even the lucky ones
will never be perfect.
If you love yourself
You'll find it in someone else.


-Ky

Poetry and Throw Up!

Yes Isn't that title just calling out to you? Let me explain. Today I went to the fair wit Tay-Tay and everything and first it was great! But I threw up on one of the rides and it went poo...Then I went out the Ferris wheel wit ELMO!!! Eek! That was fun :) Pics VVVVV











The First Pic is when we we're on the Farris wheel, I'm the one with the Hoodie :) My friend is on the other side you can't really see her. The 2nd of is just of Awesomeness Elmo himself! And The 3rd pic i thought was Uber pretty because I took it while we we're at the top of the Ferris wheel <3

Alright That's the FIRST part of my post explaining my trip to the fair and about elmo eek!

Second Part is about poetry!! It's official and obvious that I love writing poetry and rhyming and speaking my mind so, Every post at the bottom I'm gonna add in a little poem to tie it up, Oh ya and I'm gonna try to get pictures in the post's to!

Anyway My poem for this post v

When your frown
Is bigger than your smile
and you feel
That no one will be there
I guarantee
you'll find the one you love
In those moments
When you least exspect it
And your alone with fear
Your Soul mate will be walking along
Wondering about what they fear
and you will notice
that they're yours
from the second you look in there eyes
Love at first sight
I do believe it's true
I saw his eyes
I thought he was mine
I loved him with a passion
That could of killed others
But he left me heartbroken
but one person was there
and always has been
He's been my shining armor
and my night time lullaby
Knowing that he's there
and knowing that he cares
I drift softly into a dream
That shows me
With him
As soul mates.

-Ky

A Post I write A Post It's true a Post i Write Just For You!

Yep, I start off with a Rhyming title! Speaking of I feel like writing today once again Poetry, but first let me fill you in On my plans. Today I have nothing to do, but I made it that way purposely Saturdays are my lazy days! Tomorrow I'm going to a fair that's in the next town over, and My friend and I are going on this ride called the Zipper, if you haven't heard of it already It's a ride where the put you and 1-2 other people and they close the door then spin you all around, Upside down, left, right. It's really scary but so much fun. Anyway Rhyming poem will be down there
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Little Little Star
Shining through the night
How to you stay there
Shining oh so bright
Do you ever leave?
Or are you out of sight?
Little Little Star
can you see me watching
Can you see the cars?
Can you see the roads?
Can you see the tar?
Little Little Star
Do you ever rest?
Are you always shining?
Do you haft to take yearly tests?
Do you have competitions?
To tell who shines the Best
Little Little Star
Aren't you oh so bothered?
With everyone staring at you?
Do you ever feel smothered?
Little Little Star
Oh How you shine so bright
To me it's a mystery
How you use so much might.

Writing For the Hurt.

Right about now I feel alone. Worthless, Stupid, Idiotic, Ugly, and any thing you can think of that relates around those area's. I guarantee that I'm the ugliest in my school. Look around, they're Gorgeous while I'm that "Sunshiney Emo" So whatever. Life Sucks It always had, I saw like 12 people dancing together at the slow dance, I was ready to cry from being alone my friend was like the same way...But she doesn't know what It feels like so. I'll just deal with it, the guy i like i got over him. And I think I like this one guy...but he'd never like me. And He likes my friend and I don't even hang with him and he's kinda weird and he'd never go out with me. So Ya :( I hope he doesn't read this... he might.. Hm. Oh well he won't know it's him! I'm gonna name him Phil off of my nothing child. Well tomorrow I'm going to the fair with Taylor (I think) and speaking of so many people we're dancing together... At the dance there was
Dylan+ Natalia.
Hannah+ Ryan
Abby D+ Jake
Abby C+ Trevor
Tom Dw+ Lexi
then there was a bunch of 7th graders dancing to. To be honest I was jealous of them. On how they had someone, I wish if you danced with someone you were automatically dating them. Then I'd be dating Aidan....But he was paid. I still cry over that :( But what do you guys care? Mhm thought so. Well It's been a Long night. BTW My play went great!! My sister and her friends were there and My dad showed up to :) I memorized every single line! Yay for me! Hehe. I wish my friends had gone though, they were all at the dance. So Now I wish thee a Goodnight and a Happy life because I'm ready to cry and My eyes are red from being tired and I'm kinda hungry and I've been saying and to much. <3

Ky
Night <3

I have not a clue what title I should Use.

Like I said. No clue what to name this post because so far. I have not one clue what's gonna go into this post. So now I go ahead and write my mind freely! :)

On the first note I'm really sad right now, I haft to skip the LAST dance on Friday :( I have a play to do and I'm a pretty crucial part. If it last's more than a Half an hour I can't go at least. Otherwise I'll just be running to get to our school for the dance. I don't know how many people are going though...All I know is that the guy I'm in love with is going and yet he said no so I can't have him so I don't even really wanna go anymore. Anyway the play I'm in is called "The Final Dress Rehearsal." It's a play about the Final rehearsal of "Cinderella". Since it's only 9 people tops in the play everyone either doubled up or has a major part. I doubled up on The younger sister and Older sister, and believe it or not I have A LOT of lines.

Now secondary I'm crushed. And I did something really bad. But I can't tell anyone what I did bad so you guys are just gonna haft to live clueless. Lets just say....SOMETHING REALLY BAD. Now I feel all guilty about it so Pooey :(

Third-ary facebook has finally not consumed my entire life! YAY! I've been reading a good book it's called "The Memory Keepers Daughter". I started crying when Dr.Henry just gave away his little girl to Caroline without even consulting Norah about it...It's just so stupid about how people give there children away to some place they don't even know about.


Anyway Now Me Is Done :)
Ky is OUTT!

A day like no other...Except Today I'm alone.

Yes. I Believe today I'm alone, but not like "I have no friends I hate life" Even though I don't and I do...I meant more of a "Moms At work and I stayed home today" alone. The House is to myself right now <3 Cocoa Pebbles lay right in front of me so now I smile because well... I'M COO COO FOR COCOA PEBBLES! Yes, Pebbles are much better than Puffs. I'm not in a writing mood today... Actually I am. But I'm in the mood for writing poetry. So I'm gonna write a couple of different poems for the rest of this post. So enjoy :)

Staring

I see you looking over
Like I'm not even there
Pointing and laugh
with all your little friends
You probably think I have no feelings
Like I really just don't care
But to be honest
I really do care
They tell me I'm different
Well guess what we all are
If someone is not different
Then they are the ones who are.
We all have our own lives
None exactly the same
Some turn out better
And some turn out in pain
but people keep on crying
Because know one bothers to Love
While the people laugh at that person
Because they're just not good enough
I know many of those people
Who sit in bed at night
Crying there eyes out
Because they're left alone
When no one will tell them they're good enough
and no one will say that they care
It results in Distress
Distress and Despair.
No one has bothered
to utter 3 simple words
I love You
is all the need
But instead they just stay hurt
I know these people
just a little to well
Because believe or not
I tend to be
Like those people.
I am
One of those people.


Teardrop

Oh Little Teardrop
How I always see you there
Oh How I watch you Plop
with all the words of despair
On to the ground you drop
While no one can compare
To how it must feel
To watch you hit the floor
Putting your heart in steel
and watching the one you love go out that door.
Now you have nothing, No appeal.
And now you just stay there waiting for more.
The Despair Is Never Ending.
So now it just stays Pending.
With nothing more
Than that little teardrop
Heading for the door.

OMG! It's may already??

Wow time really does fly!! It's Already May, Spring is here and guess what, It's hot as hell down here!! (or up depending where u r!) A guess a hot spring means that one Brutal summer is coming. Great exactly what I need, and guess what! I'm moving :) My life long dream is finally coming true!! Well Sort of. For the summer I'll be living in one of my moms properties down in Burlington, then we're gonna try to find another place in Winchester so I don't haft to change schools. I honestly hope my mom snaps to reality and realizes we WANT to switch schools and WANT a brand new start and everything. Plus that property in Burlington is suppost to be Uber nice with a swimming pool and everything. Can't wait!!!! Well...After the packing i can't wait!!

Anyway List Of Events DUN DUN DUUUNNN!!!
These are things that have happened all through the time I didn't post! :)

1. I got a boyfriend!! (Yippe!)
2. My tutor had to move back to college :'(
3. My boyfriend dumped me!! (Huge story behind that.)
4. A new kid came to the school!!
5. I actually Enjoyed detention!!
6. I was rejected by the guy I love :(

and much more
But those are the basics :)
Tonight there's a talent show and I REALLY REALLY wanna go, But i have no way to get there...or get back...So I'm stuck. Well Till a later post

Happy Spring Guyz!!! :)

Facebook! Yes, I AM Addicted.

Hey! Ya, Once again I'm writing this Pointless thing that barely Anyone reads. I'm also stalking people's profile on Facebook! Woop Woop! Haha, Right now I believe I am waiting for my boyfriend, and yes HE asked ME out, Which i still don't understand WHY he would. But never the less I'm extremely happy that he did. Oh ya, ITS FINALLY VACA <3 Spring break For the win! A whole week of relaxation (well not really), I already have tons...and tons of plans, but left open early Monday and Tuesday for him ;). Science project due Wednesday after break. I hope these days are the LONGEST of my life!!!

On Other Hands, Isn't facebook Addicting? Seriously. I'm on it like everyday...and from what I can tell so are a lot of other people. I update my status like every hour but that's probably just because I have no life. At all. Which is another reason every one hates me! Fun. Hm...I wanted to write about something but i can't seem to remember what that was. Oh well, I'll just talk about Vaca? Yes yes yes. Sounds nice. My boyfriend said maybe that would could go to the movies so I'm looking forward to that....Except this Kid might "come along" Which would suck big time. I just don't wanna be mean and say something about it. I guess I'll deal if he ends up coming along, It probably won't even happen anyway. Just like one of my best friends, she said 2 months ago that she'd come down for the weekend but never responded to my message about when and how she's gonna get here. Another pointless and upsetting disappointment to come my way, so i shouldn't get my hopes to high for THIS event. Especially since I'd be crushed even more since its
1. At the movies, which i rarely get to go to.
2. With my boyfriend, Who i love so very much, I just can't tell him that now can I?
So like I said. I'll just forget about the whole thing, and if he mentions it and says he still wants to go then I'll go and have a great time (i hope). I have no clue what we would even see anyway, we'd probably end up skipping the movies and go downtown or something. The problem is the popularity level in my school, I hit rock bottom, and he's close to the top, so he'd probably be embarrassed to go out in public with me anyway. Oh well at least he's dating ME. A loser. With no friends. And No life. Now what should I write about...Oh ya! My best friend <3 Well she IS my best friend, but she lives sooo far away from me. Like literally in a different country. I live in the USA she lives in Canada. :( I hope someday I'll get to meet her because she's always been here for me and i always return the favor. Anyway once again this is a pointless entry in a pointless blog that no one will ever read! Now i go!

P.S Word of the days is.....Sheugs! <3


Luvin U Guys!
-Ky :)

What to do, What am i suppost to do.

Well right now. I'm bored. ONCE AGAIN. I usually am. Nothing to do. Not a lot of friends. And Well. What else do you expect? My sister went ahead and cut my bangs. Great, they look more awful-er than usual. Believe me. They always look like shit. Fml. Now i can't do anything about it so I don't care. Life sucks. Doesn't it? There's no point unless you have someone to love. I'm that person who will never find any. So I have no point I have no love I have no life. Did I mention I'm in love with my Ex-Boyfriend who lives a entire state away, which would be a 20 hour drive on my calculation from my town to his but considering i live on the far east of my town it would add a extra 20 minutes to the drive? Ya that would be something to share. I always felt a blog was for expressing, but really what does a young girl have to express? A lot more than anyone would think. Think being that keyword there.

What to write...Well today my whole Team had a lunch in, in our library. I made a salad. Believe it or not it was the most appetizing looking salad there. I was pretty pleased with myself and had a bowl of it. It was delicious AND Nutritious! It was this whole thing based on the book "Chew on This" Great book by the way I actually enjoyed reading it. But probably because it gives you the straight out fact instead of avoiding all the stuff about those fast food companies. I've been a vegetarian for a while now but seriously I was convinced after that. Don't take this as advertising that book or something. I just really like the book. Who's gonna actually read this anyway? No one? Thought so sweethearts. I really have nothing better with my life then to right out what I'm thinking and stuff. But honestly I just like to express my self. I believe the best part of my day was...Hm...Well....When i went and sat next to this guy will during our 7th period class because i had some things to do in English..and he was right next to me, he's really cute to :) but like i said. No one could like me that way. Pssh I'm to ugly for them. Haha. Well now I'm out of things to write, and I've said the word "well" WAY to many times. Ttyl.

Always Lovin
-Ky
:)

At Thy Library.

Yes Right Now I'm at the library. Extremely bored. So i came up with a list of a bunch of things to do at the library if you ever find yourselves in MY situation. Some of them require friends but who cares! Gives your something to do? Am i right? I'm right! :D

1. Go around and count the librarians that are roaming around. Then the ones sitting at a desk. Then multiple it by 3. Divide it by 2. And scream the number in someones face.

2. Ask every librarian there name. Then going to a different librarian ask if they know the other librarians name. If they don't do go ahead and inform them.

3. Use a computer!! If you don't have your library card type in a bunch of random numbers. It usually works.

4. Pick the two main floors and play hide and seek! The more people the funner it is ;]

5. Play the Multiple personality's game! Its when you have conversations with yourself...and your other self.

6. Go up to someone around your age that you've never seen in your life, then ask them to be your best friend. If they say yes embrace them in a hug then walk away straight faced. If they say no start to cry hysterically. If someone asks you what's wrong smile widely and ensure that nothings wrong.

7. Play the quiet game! If anyone comes in 2 feet of you whispering, talking, or even breathing loudly. Scream that they're distracting you. Then if your bothered by the librarians tell them your just trying to do your work.


Well I do those things a lot, and its actually sooo much fun to enjoy those activities! :D <3 Hope you guys get a chance to use em :]

Luv Ya Always
Ky :]

Starting Off?

Well. If you ask me, I don't do much Blogging. Or really anything at all like this. I've been bored, and really I like writing. (most of the time) so I thought "Hm, why not?". Probably No one will read this anyway. So why not just go ahead and express myself!

Starting off. My name is Kyleigh. K-Y-L-I-E. But spell t differently. I'm a 6th grader. In my opinion I have no friends. I'm obsessed with the guy I like, and just broke another guys heart, and now no one will talk to me because of it. Most of the time I feel alone, I write poetry which has made a lot of people cry. So now I keep it to myself. I rather not go into further exsplination. To make things clear early Music is practically my life, that and the computer/phone. My cell is always right by me or in my hand otherwise I get a empty feeling. What am i to expect? It makes me feel like I actually have something to do with my life. I really have no point for this and no clue what I'm spos't to write. So I guess for now this will be it? Wait. Nah. I got some things to say. Right now I'm a sped, and my "tutor" as I like to call it is going to go back to her college and finally become a teacher! Yippe! But now all my teachers are worried that I'll stop doing my homework. But whatever, I only skipped homework because I didn't feel like doing it. If i really wanted I could do it. Now I really have no choice but to work on it. Whatever, I'll get over it. So this weeks mayjor important to everyone of my teachers because my "tutor" is leaving and I'm not gonna do anything I'm supos't to and on and on. I skipped today (Monday) because for the first time in my life allergies kicked in! Yay for me. :p. So my mom got once again a phonecall being yelled at because its such a important week for us. I really am not interested in this crap so I just nodded and was like "alright". I can't wait till the school years over. Duh, why else would it matter? Anyway I'll post tommorow. But really is anyone gonna read this? Probally not.

Always Lovin
Ky :]