Believe me, it hurts.

I've done bad things before. Things that I regret and things I wish I could take back. People have called me ugly and disgusting and stupid. I believe them. When the tears fall at night that's when I believe them. I believe the words I read, the words I hear. Having no one telling me they're wrong just makes me accept it.


I am a slut.
I am ugly.
I am worthless.
I am idiotic.
I am never going to be loved.
I am never going to be cared for.
I am never going to find my one.
I am never going to be his one.
I am nothing.

Nothing in a world of everything. When I look at what people say about me, I don't think they realize what I go through everyday. Everyday knowing that what they say is true. That what they say will always hurt me.

I've never been truly loved. Love is a lie. Lieing will always hurt. Hurt will always kill me. When I'm finally torn apart, will people miss me when I'm gone? When I lay in the coffin cold as ice.

Will you be the people that say "She deserved it."
Or will you be the one that says, "I wish she hadn't gone."

Will you regret what you've said, or will you laugh at me even harder?

Lonelieness doesn't assure life without hurt.
But it assures life without as much hurt.

When you interact with people everyday some of them are going to make fun of me, some of them will give you the horrible looks that make you cringe and want to curl up and walk away.

Well..
I've been hurt way to much. So I'm just taking myself away from what is causing it.
I must leave now.

I love nothing
I love nobody
I will never love anyone.
Because loving someone, gives them more of a change to hurt me. I won't be able to live through that.

Bye.
Kyleigh Jewel Sanchez.