Sorry.

I really should pay more attention to this. It's not like anyone reads it anyway, who wants to hear about the problems a teenage girl ends up going through and how she over comes whatever problem shes thinking of only to gain about 6 more. It weighs down my heart when i can't help everyone in need, I know it's impossible to help EVERYONE, but i seriously wish I could. Because life. Is. Hard.

I think I'm finally over Aidan. I want him a part of my life.. but he honestly doesn't want me there with him. He hates me, and I know he does. He's never liked me but I had some strange illusion that maybe just maybe he could care about me to. But nope, i was oh so wrong, he's "done" with me, I love how he lies to me to. I love how my sister lies to me. I like how no one tells me the fucking truth. It's amazing that I'm so stupid and so idiotic I actually believe people when they talk to me. I hate my sister.

I hate Aidan Broderick.

I can say he ruined my life, he's reminded me that I'm not good enough, that I'm not pretty enough, that I'm annoying, that I'm a bitch, he's called me a whore, and put so much stress on my life. I really wish some guy would come in my life that likes me for who I am, and not who I always pretend to be.

When I'm in a good mood, I'm the best person to be friends with, you just can't piss me off, and its hard for me to become angry at people. Unless you hurt me deeply I rarely get mad. Getting me mad leads to several things.

1. Losing me as a friend
2. A major ass whooping.
3. Life turned into hell.

I'm not in the mood to really tell you what I'm thinking of, because I really don't know anymore. My mind is scrambled I'm a puzzle that no one is willing to put together. It's hard to understand me, unless you really know me, and unless I tell you all my secrets, I'm glued shut.

Did anyone thinks of pliers? I'm pretty sure that could get the book of me open hahah

Well its 1am and I have school tomorrow.. and therapy.. and a school dance. I promise I'll update sooner<3

Believe it or not I love ya guys.
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