What is so wrong?

People ask me why I'm so depressed all the time. I don't understand what's wrong.. I never understand why I cry. People say I want "attention" that's not what I'm looking for. I just want someone to understand.

Someone to know what i've gone through, and how sometimes life just seems to hard the take. I shouldn't be this way. I'm 12 years old, but everyone hates me. I barely have any friends at all, and the friends I supposedly have want me to kill myself? How is that gonna make me feel better. How is that gonna make me feel loved. How is that gonna give me something to live for.

Sometimes I wonder what its like in church, were god is your savor. Were u feel like someones listening, i never feel like anyone's listening. I see empty walls and no words spoken. A silenced room with cold stares.

I can't tell anymore but I'm crying

I keep being told that I've changed, that everything i was is no more. What am i? I can't figure it out.

Bye for now.. Kyleigh.