Pretend.

Lets all pretend....
to be happy...
Completely happy...
Nothing but bliss....
Just for today....
Even if tomorrow...
Brings sorrow...

I feel like All I've been doing is pretending. Pretending the I care. Pretending that I'm there. Pretending That I'm good enough. Pretending I'm in love. Honestly I don't know what I'm feeling. It's a new thing. It hurts though. I feel pain and I feel depression.. I should be thrilled. I should be in utter bliss. But I'm just not, I don't feel as strongly as I did before.

You are the brightest star and I'm in love with who you are...

Whenever I talk to him. He says that's true. But I don't believe it. I want to so badly. But I can't believe how anyone could truly love me..for well...me. I'm nothing in the world of everything. If I die nothing would change, I mean so less to the society of earth that I should just go and die. Shouldn't I?


Drop..
I look out the window.
To see the small droplets forming.
and to watch them hit the ground.
As they come down faster
The more into my thought I go.
The more I tend to think
Of all the possibilities
of where I could end up in life.
My mind takes over my life
I do not see anything...
But I hear the deep thoughts
That always remain in the back..
What will happen if I make one wrong decision
will my life become nothing..
or has it always been nothing..
like they all tell me.
I don't know which way to go now.
So I sit watching
Those droplets
Fall down my windowsill.


White Lines and red Lights- Between The Trees.