I'm giving up.

I don't know why this time but I'm ready to brake, I'm ready to snap in two. Ready to just go and die. Somethings going through my brain causing me to be so angry and mad at everyone for everything for all the things people have done to me I'm blaming everyone for it, because it is their fault. This isn't my fault that I'm ready to cry it's theirs.

Pain is always caused by someone else.

That's the sad truth. The sad god damn fucking truth. I wish it wasn't. We all aim our anger at other people causing them sadness and hurt and pain.

If we all learned to love each other their would be no more Depression. No more. We all could say that someone loves us.

I am one of the people that feels so upset by these people I really can't tell myself honestly that I am beautiful, That SOMEONE loves me. I can't let myself believe that. I tell myself all the good things but seriously I can't. Rebounding those compliments comes insults.

I want to be destroyed.

I want to be dead.

I want to be loved.


Tree's rustle with the sound of the wind
a soft hum as it blows
Listening in deep thought
Wonder crawls into my mind
Why am I the way I am
Who will end up loving me
When is the right time
What are the right words
Where will it all happen.
I really cannot know
How this will all come together
But I have hope
Hope is all I really need now
Faith as well
Count on faith and my hope
Maybe it will be enough
But how Can I tell?
I can't
I just got to trust
Even if it's hard
I gotta trust.

Love The way you lie- Eminem Ft Rhianna.