Things Are Going Good. For now.

A lot has happened sweethearts.

Did ya miss me? I doubt it.

Guess What Guys! I got a Boyfriend. Maybe I'm not such a pathetic loser as I seem to be. I told you bout the guy that broke my heart and dumped me on Christmas Eve right? Ya I got back together with him. Stupid decision, but a part of my heart never was able to say Goodbye. I couldn't help but ask him back out . I love him! But I love you all to. :) Ryan, that's his name has always been here to listen. He's not the cutest of people but he's been close to my heart for a long time. Since October at least. Longer than I've known my best friend, Selena. She is seriously my everything, without her I'd be no one I'd be alone. I wouldn't have Ryan right now because without her I wouldn't have anything to talk about with Jordan and last night I had a sleepover with Jordan who got me to ask out Ryan again. So. I owe it all to Selena for my happy life <3

I feel like I'm gonna be hurt again, Like this is just another pointless joke and I'll be with no one and be alone again. For now I'm giving it a try, because Honestly I do love him. I just can't tell him that. It would be weird...I'm gonna ease up on the whole Love thing. Love is a difficult thing to explain. You just know what you know and what you know is what you stick to. What I know now, is that I love him and now he's mine. This time I won't screw it up, I'm gonna back off and not be so obsessive. When I first dated him I was ALL OVER him. Nonstop missing him, nonstop talking to him, always wanting him to call me, always begging him to stay. This time I'm gonna be normal. If he says he loves me I'll agree and repeat the same words back. For now I stay...Quiet. Ya that's a good word to use. Quiet.

Did I mention, I just got back from watching Fireworks with my friends Jordan+Emily and this new awesome 5th grade Mikey! Mikey really can sing, and I mean he's REALLY good at it. His brother asked me out once...his brothers in 9th grade....Awkward. But I like Mikey. NOT IN THAT WAY. He's the new Brendan P. :)

I just realized its 11:17. I missed 11:11 :( My wish would be for him to come on and talk to me! But I'm not gonna let anyone know that..Except you guys :) Promise to keep my secrets? Okay Good. Well I think I've bored you enough with my long details of how I feel.

Poem for Post!

I'm In Love
For The Last Time
and For the First Time
I never stopped
He was My One
But It went on
and On
He broke my heart
It shattered with a pow
I never was able to repair
But I regained his love
and Finally
I start over with what I say
Three words begin the relationship
I Love You.


Song Of the post:
Fer Sure- Medic Droid. :0)

Ttyl Guys :)