That Boy...Lets trade?

Well, My girls..
In the next room..
Sometime I wish she was you..
I guess we never really moved on.


That's the song I haft to sing for my Jubilation auditions. On tuesday. 3 days. From now. I memorized the whole thing. Well at least the first 2 parts of it. It reminds me of this guy...who I'm in love with. But he's my friend boyfriend. And I'm screwed. If she reads this I'm honestly like dead. I can't ever have her find out I'm in love with him...I'd be hated, why do I get in these situations? I guess I'm just a failure at life. I always have been havn't I!!

Told You So.

Didn't I? I gave you reasons over and over again why I'm not good enough for anyone. Not even my boyfriend, whos a perverted abusive sex addict. I hate it. I wanna end it so bad but I just can't get the guts to. He dosen't even talk to me anymore.. I was in love with. But now..I'm just not. He changed and so did I. He became a pevert, and I became more independent. I think he knows how I feel about this whole thing as well, and he knows that this isn't gonna last to long. Fml. I need to tell him this. What if he really dosen't know how I feel....He'd probably try and fix it. Try and make everything better. It wouldn't work out that way though. It can't be fixed...I wish I could I wish I could love him the way he seems to love me. But honestly I just don't feel that way..He's just...I can't.....I...I wish I could! I wish I could just go back before he hurt me so bad on Christmas eve and love him like that. I was head over heels for him but it just didn't work out...for him. He was "Immature" but I was stupid. If he hadn't changed things would be fine. If he hadn't hurt me life would be good and I would be so happy.


I really don't know What I'm supposed to say for a poem this post. I have nothing to write, well nothing more than what I poured into up there. But if it helps make up for it I have a song, the same one I am singing for Jubilation try outs (select chorus) :)


Lips of an Angel- Hinder.